Were you abandoned by your father or mother?

How were you able to get over it? my father walked out on my om and I when i was a baby...26 years ago...He had the chance to go look for us or at least me in those five years that we remained in that country but he never did, I just cannot understand how can someone have the guts to do that to a piece of their own flesh and blood how? like if you were some kind of worthless object, that has scarred my soul and at first i hated him for it but later I forgave him but I can't get over it every day I think about it not so long ago for the first time I saw him in an old picture that was lost and I resemble him if I had the money I would search for him, even though he could be anywhere but heck I am poor, is there a way I can get over this??? I know some people are like "I don't need them whatever I have my mom or dad that's enough" but unfortunately I am not like that, that's something that hurts me in the inside I've always been depressed since I was a kid people were mean to me but I think the main reason for my eternal sadness is my father...he left us to go with some other lady that was expecting a child of his...